I am not doing this to myself anymore…

the final chances I have gave to myself is giving me more misery than cure…

maybe that’s how humans are…

always hoping for something…

even if the hope is not worth it…

so, I am going to stop.

stop the final chances.

stop the hope.

stop the misery.

and stop lying to myself.

why the decision?

because,

I finally know what’s worth and what’s not…

I see what I am doing to myself…

and I cannot bare living in misery…

thanks for the valuable lesson.

I do sincerely hope you learn something too…

and I here by,

end my final chance.

for the sake of myself.