happy, sad, excitement, and loneliness.

I am so full of them.

people can’t tell me how or what I should feel.

but they do affect how I feel.

I feel happy because I have good friends who keep me accompanied when I needed them most.

I feel fun when she calls me a faggot and and we can laugh loudly about it.

I feel glad because I can sit and chat over a cup of frappuccino with you for hours and hours.

I feel contended because of who I am and who I’ve become.

but,

all this positive feeling is impossible if,

I have not felt melancholy, sadness, and sorrows…

people say I am full of expressions.

yes, I am…

indeed.

but why can’t I tell what I am feeling now?

written on 4th June 2009, time 1120 at Starbucks JJ Wangsa Maju.